Thank You for Loving Me

The following post is probably going to be one of the longest I've ever written.

And I've written some long posts before.

It's hard for me to say the things
I want to say sometimes
There's no one here but you and me
And that broken old street light

This is for my friends. All of my friends. And I'm probably going to run out of lyrics from this song, so, yeah. Bear with me, please.

Lock the doors
We'll leave the world outside
All I've got to give to you
Are these five words tonight

Dear Josh,

Thank you so much for all that you've ever done for me. You've been my best friend for as long as I can remember, and I'm so thankful for it all. You've stuck it out with me in the best of times, and in the worst. I remember the day you left for Colorado, a little part of me left with you. You've always been there when I needed someone to cry on, when I needed someone to talk to, when I needed advice, and when I was feeling down and just needed your company. When you got back from Colorado, I was very very happy. My best friend had come home.

When I look back at our friendship, I'm glad we went through all of it. Our childhood, growing up, the separation, and then adolescence. Middle school was a blast with you around, Chewning and what not. We had ups and downs, sure. Everyone does. But I'm glad we had all of it- 'cause you're my best friend, and we came to be so going through all of that.

Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes when I couldn't see for
Parting my lips when I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me
Thank you for loving me

Dear Annie,

You have no idea how much you've changed my life. Before sixth grade, I had met you, and we said maybe two words the whole year at Little River. Then, when sixth grade came along, what you refer to as "the rise of the chipmunks" began, the day you sat down with us. You and Josh seemed to hit it off better than you and I did, but nonetheless, we became fast friends. Sadly, the next year, Josh left us. After much bickering, both of us let it go, and decided "hey, we have each other, and a few other friends." Now, these few other friends were quite.. Well, you know what I mean. Anyways, I tended to stay out of the catfights and drama, and you came to me when all that was over. And I was there to cheer you up. And so, what I refer to as " the era of the two witch-burning chipmunks" began. You know what I mean.

Sadly, again, we departed after two years of burning witches and making fun of our language arts teacher, and you went to Carrington, where you were reunited with Josh and you met Tina. I was slated to DSA, where I met several people I'll never forget. After eighth grade, and much drama, you and Tina switched to DSA, where I was like the lone wanderer or something. The three of us had our laughs, and then tenth grade rolled around. (oddly enough, "I'll Be There For You" by Bon Jovi just came on the radio!) You believed that Tenth would be hell for you. Well, I dunno if it was for you, but it has been for me. And you've been with me, every step of the way. I cannot properly thank you enough for all that you've done for me. It would take all my life to repay you for the kindness you have shown me in a few short years. Thank you so so so much, for everything.

I never knew I had a dream
Until that dream was you
When I look into your eyes
The sky's a different blue

Dear Tina,

I know the first thing rolling through your mind is "Oh lord. What's he going to say...?" Well, what I'm going to say is "Thank you", then "I'm sorry". You know how sorry I already am, for everything. I've told you. And while I can't take back it all, and while it's of absolutely no help, I am still your friend, much to my delight. We talked on Skype a few days ago, for the first time in what feels like decades. I had to really try so hard so I could get you to see that I'm of good intentions. And I'd like to go on being your friend. What's over is over, and when ever you need anything, know that I'm right here. I always have been. When I needed you, you were there, right alongside Annie and Elizabeth. Thank you, so very much. I can't express how thankful I am for all that you've done for me.

Cross my heart
I wear no disguise
If I tried, you'd make believe
That you believed my lies

Dear Elizabeth,

You are such an awesome person, you know? Not only is your spirit strong and caring, but you manage to keep a positive attitude, even when faced with a massive obstacle. Positivity runs deep within your kind and compassionate soul, don't ever let that go. Be what you have been for me for everyone you meet. You'll change their lives, just as you have changed mine. Thank you for being my amazing friend. I mean it, from the bottom of my heart.

Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes when I couldn't see
For parting my lips when I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me

Dear Hanna,

You already know how much I care about you. Heck, you've posted a few blog posts with me tagged in one or two. Your last one totally made my month, though, because it meant so very very much to me. I mean it when I say Thank you for loving me. Sure, I only met you halfway through the school year, properly, and sure, I was a little childish about meeting you at first, what with my making fun of you for being shorter than me. Which, you are, by the way. Haha. I tease. But really, you've been one of the most amazing people you ever could be to me

this past school year. I love you to death, and you never cease to amaze me. You're a tough soul, you show your spiritual strength when you deal with harsh circumstances. And you've seen it all, you've seen the worst. And you've stayed through it all. Thank you for helping me to follow in your footsteps and be the best that I can be as well.

You pick me up when I fall down
You ring the bell before they count me out
If I was drowning you would part the sea
And risk your own life to rescue me, yeah

Dear Alex W,

Hey there. It seems like this year lasted forever, doesn't it? Haha. Well, you've been one of my best friends for two years, and I know you maybe probably won't read this unless I send it out to you, but thank you. We've had some times where we got tossed into the pavement, and some times where it was the opposite. But all the while, you stayed my friend, and I'm glad. You really know how to cheer someone up if they've been down. And you pick up on it easier than some. Don't ever lose that keen eye of yours. Don't ever lose your compassionate soul either. I hope someone can do for you all that you've ever done for me.

Lock the doors
Leave the world outside
All I've got to give to you
Are these five words tonight

Dear Kelly,

If you end up somehow reading this (I think I WILL send this out to everyone), I want you to know that you have such a tender loving spirit. When I was down and upset, you'd be there, with a card, and some loving words of wisdom. I know I've messed up sometimes, sometimes worse than other times. You were the first to forgive, and accept it. Thank you for being who you are, thank you for doing what you've done for me, and thank you for listening to me, every time that you did. It all meant the world to me.

Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes oh, when I couldn't see
You parted my lips when I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me

You, all of you, have impacted my life. Drastically. And I'll never be able to repay all that you've done for me, all the kindness you've shown me. Thank you, SO much, all of you. I love each and every one of you, so so much.

When I couldn't fly
Oh, you gave me wings
You parted my lips when I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me

Thank you.

Really.

Thank you for loving me
Thank you for loving me
Oh for loving me

~ Tim