Bounce

I came to terms with myself a few hours ago. I was lying in bed, playing some stupid game on my iPod, then fell asleep. I had a dream where I actually met myself. Odd, I know. Anyways, me and myself had a talk. He (Me, I guess) told me that I needed to stop worrying so much about what everyone else thinks about me. I reminded myself of one of our favorite quotes by Dr. Seuss

"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind."

~Dr. Seuss

I been knocked down so many times
Counted out 6, 7, 8, 9
Written off like some bad deal
If you're breathing you know how it feels
Call it karma, call it luck
Me, I just don't give up

I told myself that life is short, and I'm at the age where worrying isn't supposed to be a daily routine. I'm supposed to be having fun. My mother had told me this prior to my nap, I guess that's why I said that. I woke up, and realized that everything on my mind was so simple and pointless to even think about. This girl, ****, had been leading me on for a while, and I found out recently that I creep her out. It came as a blow to my self esteem. A huge blow. She'd led me on all year, and I had no idea. I met her this year, and I liked her, a lot. We were fast friends, so I thought. All of it was for show, I suppose. But I don't care anymore, she can go live her life without me, I don't care. When she breaks up with her boyfriend, and tries to come back to me, which has happened on more than one occasion, I'm going to tell her "No, I can't do this anymore. Leave me alone."

Bounce, Bounce Nothing's gonna keep me down
Bounce, Bounce Stand up, shout it out
Bounce, Bounce I play hard, I play to win
Count me out, count me in
I'll be bouncing back again

I'm so happy to now know the truth about her. It's like a huge burden off of my chest. Thank God, I can move on. I can't believe that I fell for the whole routine. Oh well, C'est la vie.

This ain't no game; I play it hard
Kicked around, cut, stitched and scarred
I'll take the hit but not the fall
I know no fear, still standing tall
You can call it karma, call it luck
Me, I just don't give up

In light of recent events, I'm single, and kinda crushing. =9 There's this girl, and I like her. We've been talking for a few days, and she's about a year younger than me. She's really really nice, and just as crazy as me. However; As I've learned, I need to take my time moving into relationships. I can't fly into them like I did, I can't make things go really really fast, though I know how, because for SOME reason, my words are like honey. Hahaha. Great.

Bounce, Bounce Nothing's gonna keep me down
Bounce, Bounce Stand up, shout it out
Bounce, Bounce I play hard, I play to win
Count me out, count me in
I'll be bouncing back again

Ah, haha. Josh, you were right, being single is kinda fun. I don't have to worry about one specific person, and I can flirt mercilessly. And I do, admittedly. It's quite the bad habit.

Bring it on, I like it rough
In your face, I call your bluff
It ain't karma, it ain't luck
Me, I just don't give up

Oh yeah, summer is right around the freaking corner. I am SO pumped. I'm getting a job, hopefully, because I need one. I'll be at the beach sometimes, and I can't wait to get a tan. IF I have time. I mowed the grass today without a shirt in an attempt to do so. And because it was hot. Juli says I have a sexy back. Haha. Thanks Juli.

Bounce, Bounce Nothing's gonna keep me down
Bounce, Bounce Stand up, shout it out
Bounce, Bounce I play hard, I play to win
Count me out, count me in
I'll be bouncing back again

I'm so bouncing back from this depression that it ain't even funny.

Bounce, Bounce
Nothing's gonna keep me down
Bounce, Bounce Stand up, shout it out
Bounce, Bounce I play hard, I play to win
Count me out, count me in
I'll be bouncing back again

I believe now would be the appropriate time to insert the wise words of a very very smart friend of mine, who I'm glad I know, and glad to have known, and will miss her for most of the rest of my life.

"Think in terms of what you can do, not what may limit you." ~Celes

She's right, and I take it to heart. =]

As I'm wrapping up this post, Hanna, I love you to death. You're awesome, and yes you are, I'm not lying. Thanks for being an awesome pal, and you're right, I'm not letting this friendship die either. ;]

~ Tim